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The Valley of Damned Shepherds

Pastor Matías Herrera died during a sermon and found himself in hell, where he saw hundreds of pastors suffering for hidden sins, fulfilling the warning that “judgment must begin at the house of God” (1 Peter 4:17 KJV). Demons exposed his pride, lust, greed, and hypocrisy, proving true that “be sure your sin will find you out” (Numbers 32:23 KJV). In despair he cried out the name of Jesus, and instantly an angel rescued him, echoing the promise, “whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved” (Romans 10:13 KJV). Jesus told him he deserved damnation—“the wages of sin is death” (Romans 6:23 KJV)—but granted him mercy and sent him back with a mission to warn believers that “God is not mocked” (Galatians 6:7 KJV) and that only genuine repentance can save a soul from eternal judgment.

A pastor died during a sermon and the worst part is that he was in sin. He was taken to hell and says he saw more than 300 other pastors there. I invite you to share this testimony with others so they can be warned and not fall into the same sin as this pastor. Pay attention to this testimony:

My name is Mashes Herrera. I was a pastor for 23 years. I led a congregation of 4,000 people. I preached at international conferences. I wrote three books on holiness and thousands called me a man of God. I believed it. I believed my faith was solid, that my path was straight, that my heart was clean before the Lord.

But on the night of August 14th, all of that collapsed in a second in front of 30,000 people watching a screen. We were broadcasting our special event, Nights of Glory and Power, the 20th anniversary of the church. We had set up a massive production, synchronized LED lights, giant screens, a 15‑piece band, and cameras broadcasting across Latin America.

I was wearing my best black Italian suit, carrying my newly purchased leather Bible, and my gold watch gleamed under the stage spotlights. I felt powerful, anointed, untouchable. I walked up to thunderous applause. The lights flashed. The music vibrated in my chest. Thousands of hands rose in my direction. I smiled like a celebrity.

The sound technician handed me the wireless microphone, the same one I had used hundreds of times. I didn't notice anything unusual. I simply reached out and gripped it firmly, ready to begin the most important sermon of my life.

But the exact instant my fingers touched the metal, something exploded inside me. It wasn't pain. It was an electric shock so violent that every nerve in my body ignited simultaneously. My hand closed involuntarily around the microphone as if welded to metal. I couldn't let go.

My body began to convulse, shaking grotesquely under the bright lights. I heard screams. I heard the distorted sound of the amplified microphone as my breath caught in my throat. I fell to my knees on the stage, still clinging to that deathly current. The lights flickered. I saw blurry faces running toward me. But no one dared touch me.

I smelled burning flesh, my own flesh. My chest burned. My vision filled with black spots. And then everything stopped.

I found myself floating above my own body, which lay twisted in the center of the stage, still smoking. My hand closed around the microphone. The lights were still shining. But now they seemed distant, cold, meaningless. I could see it all from above—the technicians frantically unplugging cables, the musicians frozen, the crowd in shock, the cameras still rolling. My death was being broadcast live.

I tried to scream, to move my arms, to descend to that body lying on the stage, but I couldn't. I was trapped in an existence that was neither life nor death, suspended between two realities, watching the people who adored me weep over my corpse.

I saw my wife pushing her way through the crowd, screaming my name. I saw my children running toward the stage, but I was no longer there. That's when the scene began to darken. Not the physical lights, but something deeper. A darkness that didn't come from outside, but from within, as if the universe itself were closing in around me. I felt terror. A terror so pure and primal it didn't even have a name. Because in that moment, I understood something that chilled my soul. I wasn't ascending. I was falling.

I had expected the light. I had expected angels. I had expected to hear the voice of God calling me home, telling me I had been a faithful servant. After all, I was a pastor. I had dedicated my life to the church. I had preached the gospel to thousands, written books, prayed for the sick, baptized, married, comforted. Wasn't that enough? I didn’t deserve eternal peace? But nothing came. No light, no angel, no heavenly voice—only silence. A silence so complete, so absolute that it made me feel more alone than I had ever been in my life.

I floated in a gray void, with no up or down, no direction or destination. I called out to God in my mind. Lord, I am here. Take me with you. But my words died before they were born. The void began to change. It was no longer gray. It was becoming darker, like ink slowly seeping into water. I felt panic growing in my chest. This was not what was supposed to happen. I had studied theology. I knew the scriptures. I knew that the righteous went to heaven immediately upon death. I was righteous. I had lived righteously.

Why was I suspended in this terrible void, forgotten, abandoned? Then I heard something. It was not music or a voice. It was a distant sound like the echo of something creeping in the darkness. My consciousness tightened. I tried to move upward, but there was no up. I tried to pray, to invoke the name of Jesus, but the words wouldn't come. It was as if something was blocking them. Something dense and suffocating that filled the space around me.

The darkness was almost total. And in that gloom, I began to see shapes—shadows moving, faceless figures floating in directions I couldn't understand. Some seemed to be falling, others simply vanishing into the blackness. None looked at me. None responded.

It was then that I felt the pull. It didn't come from above. It came from below. An invisible but undeniable force like cold hands grabbing my ankles, pulling me down into the depths of that bottomless darkness.

I struggled. I kicked. I screamed silently. But it was useless. The more I resisted, the stronger the force became. It was like being sucked into a whirlpool toward a place from which there was no escape.

The descent began slowly. Darkness closed in on me, enveloping me like a heavy, damp shroud. The air—if it could be called air—grew thick and difficult to breathe. Though I no longer needed to breathe, it was a suffocation of the soul.

The deeper I descended, the heavier I felt, as if my very being were turning to lead. And then I heard it clearly for the first time—a scream. It wasn't human. It was something deeper, more harrowing, filled with utter agony and despair. It came from below, from where I was being dragged. And that scream was followed by another and another and another until it became a distant chorus of wails that shook the very void.

I prayed it was a nightmare, but it wasn't. It was real. Terribly, horribly real. The fall accelerated. It was no longer a gradual pull, but a relentless force dragging me down at breakneck speed. I felt cold. A cold so penetrating it burned, piercing to the very core of my being. It wasn't the cold of winter. It was the cold of total absence. The temperature of a place where nothing alive could exist.

The darkness now had texture. I could feel it brushing against my skin like thousands of invisible fingers caressing my face, my neck, my arms. It was as if the darkness itself were alive, conscious, examining me as I fell through it.

The screams grew clearer. They were no longer distant echoes. I could distinguish individual voices—some pleading, others cursing, others shrieking in wordless agony. I heard someone repeating endlessly, “Help me. Please help me,” until the voice broke.

I heard another cry: “I don’t deserve this...I don't deserve this" Each voice was a dagger to my conscience because I knew I would soon join that chorus. The air suddenly turned hot. I went from biting cold to suffocating heat in a matter of seconds. It was the heat of a dense oppressive furnace. But the strange thing was that there was no light. The heat didn't come with any visible flames. It was a blind heat that existed in the darkness, emanating from the invisible walls of that endless abyss.

Then I smelled something. The smell came like a sudden wave that hit me with physical force. It was the stench of burnt flesh mixed with sulfur, rot, and something chemical and nauseating that had no name. I began to hear other things besides the screams. Metallic sounds like dragging chains, deep creaks like enormous stone structures moving in the darkness, heavy panting breaths that were not human, and laughter—low, guttural laughter, full of malice and perverse pleasure.

Even the fall finally began to slow. My feet touched the ground. It wasn't ordinary ground. It was hot and damp and moved slightly under my weight, as if I were standing on raw flesh. I opened my eyes, and what I saw made me wish I had never been born. I was in an immense valley, illuminated by a sickly red glow that came from no visible source. The ground was cracked and steaming. In the distance, I saw jagged mountains that looked as if they were made of ash and bone. The sky, if it could be called a sky, was a black, starless vault, oppressive and low, as if it were about to collapse.

Above all, and everywhere, absolutely everywhere, there were figures—hundreds, thousands of souls writhing, crawling, screaming, suffering in ways my mind couldn't fully process. I began to walk, guided by a desperate impulse to find some way out, some explanation, some hope. But with every step, that hope faded. The landscape was uniform in its horror. Sharp rocks, figures bent in postures of eternal agony.

Then I saw something that made me stop dead in my tracks. Legos in a slightly elevated area of the valley. There was a more organized crowd. They weren't scattered randomly like the others. They were gathered in groups as if in some kind of assembly. I approached slowly, my heart pounding harder and harder. And when I was close enough, what I saw took my breath away.

They were pastors, hundreds of them, all dressed in the remnants of their ministerial vestments—burnt black suits, tattered robes, ties dangling from withered necks. But what completely froze me was that I recognized their faces. Not all of them, but many. They were famous preachers, evangelists I had seen on television, leaders of megachurches whose conferences I had attended, authors whose books I had read and recommended, men and women who had been celebrities of the Christian world, adored by millions.

One of them was on his knees, his hands covering his face, weeping uncontrollably. I recognized him immediately. It was Pastor Enrique Salazar, founder of one of the largest churches in Colombia, who had preached about prosperity and blessing for 40 years. Now he stood here in his tattered suit, weeping like a child. I approached him, still in shock.

“Pastor Salazar,” I whispered. He looked up. His eyes were sunken, empty or filled with such deep despair that it made me recoil. “You, too,” he said hoarsely. “You fell too.” I looked around. There were more. The Brazilian evangelist Marcos Olivivera, who had filled stadiums with his healing crusades. The Mexican pastor Carolina Reyes, who had written 20 books on faith. The Argentinian preacher Sebastian Romero, whose ministry had moved millions of dollars in donations.

They were all here, all suffering. Some walked in circles, murmuring prayers that led nowhere. Others shouted Bible verses into the void. Others simply lay motionless, broken beyond repair. And more kept coming. I saw an elderly pastor being dragged away by shadowy creatures, screaming that he had been faithful, that he had preached the truth, but his cries changed to nothing.

I sat on a hot rock, shivering. My mind couldn't process what I was seeing. If these men and women, these giants of faith, these admired leaders, these spokesmen for God were here, what hope was there for me? What hope was there for anyone? I covered my face with my hands, and I began to cry. Not physical tears, but an anguish so deep it felt like it was tearing my soul apart.

“Don't cry yet,” a voice said beside me. I looked up. It was a woman I vaguely recognized, a famous worship leader who had died years before in an accident. She looked at me with a mixture of sadness and resignation. “You haven't seen the worst yet. You don't yet know why you're here. When you do, you'll wish you could cry louder.” Her words chilled me to the bone. Before I could ask what she meant, she walked away, disappearing into the crowd of damned souls.

It was then that I heard a low, deep laugh full of malicious intent. I turned slowly, and there, emerging from the shadows as if it had been waiting for this moment all along, was a figure that wasn't human—tall, thin, with eyes that glowed like embers in the darkness. A hideous smile spread across its deformed face. And when it spoke, its voice was like metal scraping against stone.

“Welcome, Pastor Mashes Herrera. We have been waiting for you.” The creature approached slowly, savoring each step. It didn't walk. It glided as if the ground itself were parting beneath its feet. Its eyes never left me, piercing me with an intensity that made me feel naked, exposed, utterly vulnerable.

“Surprised to be here?” the demon asked, tilting its head unnaturally. “I can see it in your expression. Do you still believe there was a mistake? Do you still think you deserve heaven?” It laughed again, and the sound echoed throughout the valley, mingling with the screams of the others. “Everyone here thought the same thing when they arrived, especially those of your type—the preachers, the leaders, the anointed ones.”

“I preached the gospel,” I stammered, finally finding my voice. “I served God. I helped people.” The devil raised a hand, silencing me instantly.

“Did you serve God, or did you serve yourself in God’s name? Because I was there, Mashes. I was at every service where you preached with passion while your heart was full of pride. I was there when you counted the offerings and felt pleasure seeing how much money had been given. I was there when you secretly judged other pastors, looking down on them for not being as successful as you.”

His words were like knives. I wanted to deny them, but I couldn't because they were true. Every accusation resonated with something deep inside me, something I had buried under layers of justification and self‑deception.

“I saw how you looked at the women in your congregation,” he continued. “Not with the eyes of your body, but with the heart. You saw their beauty and fantasized, even though you never acted on it physically. You thought that made you innocent, didn't you? But your heart had already committed adultery a thousand times.” “I repented,” I whispered weakly. 

The demon cackled. “Did you repent, or did you simply feel momentary guilt before going back to the same thing? How many times did you promise to change? How many times did you say, ‘Lord, this is the last time,’ knowing deep down it was a lie? Repentance isn't a feeling, Mashes. It's transformation. And you never changed. You just got better at hiding who you really were.”

I fell to my knees, trembling. Every word was true. The demon crouched down, bringing his hideous face close to mine. “And worst of all,” he whispered, “you used God’s name to build your own kingdom. That church wasn’t for His glory. It was for yours. Every sermon, every book, every conference—everything was so they would admire you, applaud you, call you powerful. You wanted to be God, not serve Him.”

Tears began to fall. I couldn't deny him anything. Everything he said was true. I had lived a lie. I had preached holiness while my heart was rotten. I had condemned sins in others while secretly cultivating them within myself. I had used my position to feel superior, to feed my ego, to build an empire centered on myself, not on Christ.

“Look around you,” said the demon, pointing at the other pastors in the valley. “They're all like you—double‑lipped preachers, hypocritical leaders, men and women who spoke of love while their hearts were full of hatred, envy, lust, and greed. That one over there stole offerings for 20 years. That woman emotionally manipulated thousands to give money while living in mansions and luxury. That old man abused his spiritual authority to control and destroy lives. All while smiling from the pulpit.” “But they were famous pastors,”

I murmured, barely able to speak. The devil smiled broadly. “306 to be exact. And these are just the ones who arrived this month. There are entire sections of this place filled with religious leaders—priests, bishops, prophets, apostles, evangelists—all convinced they were serving God. All discovering too late that they were serving only themselves.”

I completely broke down. The weight of the truth crushed me. There were no excuses, no defenses. I knew exactly why I was here. I had lived a spiritual life for decades, hiding my true nature behind titles, sermons, and Bible verses. I had judged others while believing myself untouchable. I had built a public image of holiness while my soul secretly rotted away.

“Get up,” the demon ordered. His voice was no longer mocking. It was authoritarian. Cold. Final. I stood with difficulty, trembling from head to toe. “It’s time you saw your final resting place. Every soul here has a torment specifically designed for their sin. And you, dear shepherd, have a very special one waiting for you.”

He grabbed my arm with supernatural strength. His touch burned. He began to drag me across the valley, past the other condemned shepherds. Some stared at me with empty eyes. Others looked away in shame. One cried out, “Don’t go. Hold on.” But his voice was drowned out by the general wailing.

We walked for what seemed like an eternity. The landscape gradually changed. The rocks grew taller, forming walls on either side. The heat increased with every step, and the smell of sulfur and burnt flesh intensified until I could barely stand it. Finally, we reached a vast cavern whose entrance resembled a gaping maw waiting to swallow me whole. Inside, I saw something that made me recoil in horror.

It was a grotesque replica of my church. The same design, the same lights, the same stage set, but everything was twisted and corrupted. Something dark and viscous dripped from the walls. The pews were made of bones. The pulpit in the center burned with flames that didn't consume the wood but radiated unbearable heat. And seated on those hideous pews were hundreds of figures, souls staring at me with accusing eyes.

“Welcome to your eternity,” said the demon, pushing me forward. “Here you will preach forever, but not the gospel. You will preach your own lies, your own hypocrisies, your own damnation. And every time you open your mouth, you will feel the fire burning your throat. Every word will be agony.”

He pointed to the ghostly congregation. “They will remind you of every sin you committed, every lie you told, every soul you deceived.” He shoved me toward the burning pulpit. My hands touched the surface, and the pain was indescribable. It was as if every nerve in my body was being electrocuted again, but a thousand times worse. I screamed, but the sound only echoed in that infernal cavern.

The souls in the pews began to jeer at me, to hurl accusations. “You told us God would prosper us, but you kept the money for yourself.” “You preached purity while you leered at our wives with lust.” “You said you were a man of God, but you were just a fraud.” “You made us believe you were an anointed man, but you were empty inside.”

Their voices multiplied, overlapped, creating a deafening chorus of condemnation that pierced my soul. I tried to speak, to defend myself, but when I opened my mouth, liquid fire poured out. I felt my tongue burning, my throat melting, and yet I remained conscious. I still felt every second of torture.

“This is only the beginning,” the demon said. “This is for all eternity. Every day, every hour, every endless moment. You will preach your lies and feel the judgment of those who trusted you.”

I fell from the pulpit, rolling across the burning floor. My body was covered in burns that would never heal. The pain was constant, absolute, relentless. And worst of all was the despair—the complete realization that this would never end. There was no escape, no relief, no hope.

I crawled to a corner of the cavern, curling into a fetal position, weeping uncontrollably. The voices of the ghostly congregation continued to mock, accuse, remind me of all I had done wrong. The demon stood watching me with cruel satisfaction.

“This is how it should have been from the beginning. The truth laid bare. The final judgment. The eternal reward for a lifetime of deceit.”

I squeezed my eyes shut, wishing to vanish, wishing to cease to exist. But I couldn't. I was trapped in this place forever, condemned by my own actions, by my own hypocrisy, by my own choice to serve myself instead of God. And in that moment of utter despair, when I felt there was nowhere lower I could sink, when I accepted that this was my eternal fate, something inside me shattered completely.

From the very depths of my being, from a place I didn't even know existed, a scream erupted. It wasn't a cry of physical pain or fear. It was a cry from the soul, a desperate plea born of utter spiritual bankruptcy. And in that cry, without thinking, without planning, without any religious strategy, I uttered a single name: Jesus.


The effect was immediate and terrifying. The entire cavern shook. The flames on the pulpit flickered violently. The demon recoiled as if struck. His face contorted with fury and fear. The ghostly figures in the pews vanished instantly. The walls began to crack. And through those cracks, a light that wasn't of that place began to seep in.

“No!” roared the demon, trying to grab me again, but he couldn't get near. It was as if an invisible barrier had formed around me. The light intensified, becoming so bright it blinded. The infernal heat was replaced by a different warmth—a warmth that healed instead of burned.

I heard a sound, not words, but a frequency that made my entire being vibrate with something I can only describe as pure love.

And then I saw him—a figure enveloped in light descended through the cavern ceiling, as if the burning rocks didn't exist. He was imposing, majestic, with wings that spread like storms of light. An angel, but not the sweet kind of angel in paintings. This was a warrior radiant with authority and power. His eyes shone like suns, and when he spoke, his voice made the entire cavern tremble. “Let him go.”

“Never!” hissed the demon, writhing, trying to resist. “He is mine. He belongs to me. He lived a lie. He preached in hypocrisy.” The angel stepped forward, and the light emanating from him burned the demon, making him cry out. “It is not for you to decide that. There is a greater One who judges, and He has heard this man's genuine cry.” The demon retreated into the shadows, cursing, but couldn't get any closer.

The angel turned to me. His gaze was piercing but not destructive. It was as if he could see every part of me, every flaw, every sin, every lie. And yet he didn't despise me. “Get up,” he said with firmness but without cruelty. I stood up trembling, unable to believe what was happening. The angel extended his hand.

There is someone who wants to speak with you. But you must understand what you have seen here was real. This was your destiny, and this is the price of spiritual hypocrisy. But the cry that came from your heart, genuine, broken, desperate, opened a door that was locked. Now come. He took my hand, and in an instant we were ripped from that cavern. We ascended at an impossible speed, passing through layers of darkness, traversing the valley of the damned shepherds, leaving hell in its entirety behind. The contrast was so violent that I could hardly process it.

From absolute darkness to blinding light, from infernal heat to a peace that had no temperature, from constant torment to a silence that was not empty, but full of presence. When we finally stopped, I found myself in a place I cannot adequately describe with human words. It wasn't exactly heaven, but it wasn't earth either. It was an in‑between space filled with golden light where time seemed not to exist. And before me, seated on something that might be called a throne, but which was more a spiritual center of gravity, there was He—Jesus.

I can't describe His face. Every time I try to remember it, my mind only captures light, love, sadness, and absolute authority intertwined. But His eyes pierced me to my very core, not with anger, but with immense sadness mixed with a love so pure it made me collapse immediately. I fell to my knees, unable to hold His gaze, weeping in a way I had never experienced.

“Matias,” He said, and His voice was both gentle and overwhelming. “Look at me.” I slowly raised my eyes. “You saw the truth of your heart down there. You saw what you really were behind the mask of ministry. Do you understand now why you couldn't enter heaven?”

I nodded, unable to speak. The tears kept falling. “You preached my name,” He continued. “But you didn’t know me. You used my gospel to build your own kingdom. You spoke of humility while your heart was full of pride. You taught about love while you judged in secret. You declared holiness while you cultivated lust. And most tragically, you led others astray because they followed your example instead of mine.”

Each word was like spiritual surgery, cutting away the layers of self‑deception I had built up over decades. “Lord,” I finally whispered. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. You’re right about everything. I have no excuses. I deserve that place. I deserve that eternal torment.”

“Yes,” He said with an honesty that shattered me. “You deserve it. Everyone deserves it. But my grace isn’t based on what you deserve, but on what I offer. The cry that came from your heart in that moment of utter despair was the first genuine moment of faith you had ever had. It wasn’t the prayer of a pastor trying to impress. It was the cry of a broken soul, acknowledging its absolute need for salvation.”

He looked at me with an intensity that seemed to pierce through time. “I’m going to give you something you don’t deserve—another chance. But it won’t be easy. You will return to your body. You will return to life. But when you do, you will have a mission you cannot ignore. You must tell what you saw. You must warn other pastors, other leaders, other believers who live in hypocrisy. You must expose the truth about hell, about the judgment, about the reality of the condemnation that awaits those who use my name for their own purposes.”

“Many will not believe you,” He continued. “They will say you are crazy, that it was a hallucination, that you blaspheme by suggesting that famous pastors are in hell. Your reputation will be destroyed. You will lose friends, position, influence. But if you have truly changed, if you have truly seen the truth, then none of that will matter more than warning the souls who still have time.”

I nodded vigorously, weeping. “I will do whatever it takes, Lord. Whatever it takes.” Jesus reached out and touched my forehead. I felt a fire that did not burn, but that transformed—cleansing, purifying, rearranging something fundamental within me.

“Remember this when you return. The ministry is not about you. It never was. It never will be. It is about me. About my message. About the souls who need real salvation, not religious entertainment.” “And one more thing,” He said with absolute seriousness. “When you tell this story, when you warn about what you saw, some will genuinely repent, but others will be enraged. They will protect their hypocrisy more fervently than ever. Don’t stop. Keep going, because every soul awakened by your testimony will be worth all the rejection you will face.”

Before I could answer, I felt a violent tug as if thousands of wires were dragging me back. The light began to fade. I saw Jesus walking away—or rather, I was walking away from Him. And then everything went black.

I woke up screaming. I was in a hospital bed surrounded by machines that were beeping frantically. Doctors and nurses rushed toward me. I heard someone shout, “He’s alive. His heart is beating.” My wife appeared beside me, weeping, clutching my hand. “You were dead for 18 minutes.” “I’m sorry,” they declared. “You died. We don’t understand how, but you did.”

For the next few days, as my body recovered, my soul wrestled with the weight of what I had seen. When I was finally able to speak coherently, I told my story—first to my family, then to my church, then to the world.

The reaction was exactly what Jesus had predicted. Some wept and repented. Others called me a heretic, a lunatic, a false prophet. I lost my position in the church. I was kicked off conferences. Friends of decades turned their backs on me. But I didn’t stop, because I saw over 300 famous pastors in hell. I saw their torments, heard their screams, knew their secret sins, and understood that if I remained silent to protect my reputation, I would be complicit in the destruction of more souls. So today, I tell you this with tears in my eyes and fire in my heart:

It doesn’t matter who you are, what position you hold, how many sermons you’ve preached, or how many people call you anointed. If your heart is living in hypocrisy, if you’re using God’s name to build your own kingdom, if you’re preaching holiness while cultivating secret sin, you are walking toward eternal damnation. Hell is real. Judgment is real. And God is not mocked. You can deceive the multitudes, but you cannot deceive Him. Repent now while you still have time. Break free from hypocrisy. Live the truth you preach. Because one day, when your heart stops beating, there will be no second chance.

Thank you for listening. A final say… for speaking the truth is better than being complicit in the lies that lead souls to eternal destruction. May God examine them. May God transform them. And may God have mercy on us all.

-Source

THE CHAMBER OF THIEVES & INGRATITUDE

This testimony describes a journey through a place of torment filled with despair, where souls suffer while remembering the opportunities they rejected to repent. The Lord reveals a man condemned in hell for betrayal, ingratitude, and exploitation of a woman who sacrificed everything to support his life and education. The testimony emphasizes the seriousness of gratitude, honesty, and restitution, warning that sins like exploitation and deception have eternal consequences if left unrepented, and urging people to live righteously while there is still time.

A JOURNEY IN HELL FIRE 

We continue to move around this strange territory. It was a mysterious territory indeed. There was desolation everywhere.

In many ways, the abode of the dead surpasses all human comprehension. There were many more cries of despair that filled the air. It was incessant cries.

The Lord led me to a particular soul that was crucified on a post. As we move in the middle of the fire, people were confessing their sins aloud. Some recalled to the Lord that they serve God on earth all their life. Some said,

"Lord, I was a servant of God. Why would I find myself in this place?" Brother, there was no rest, no peace, and no joy in this place. The suffering was terrifying. Souls were skeletal, covered by fire like a garment, and maggot came out of all part of their bodies. They had no eyes, just eyes socket that were empty. Their skeletal shape were perforated, and their flesh were falling. And they tried to prevent flesh from falling from their bodies.

These souls have lost everything they had on earth. They lost their beauty, their pride and their honor. They left on earth everything they were attached to. Everything have remained on earth.

I saw that each soul kept the memory of his earthly journey. They remember the opportunity that presented to them on earth to repent. The opportunity they could cease in order to convert and come back to the Lord. They have squander all the opportunity to repent. I saw that everyone in hell recognized that Jesus Christ was the Lord and that they have been fooled with false belief in their heart on earth.

A CONDEMNED SOUL

Now the Lord wanted to reveal to me the realities and circumstances that led each soul here. Together we walked towards a soul that was condemned in this place. It was the first soul we visited. He was hanged on this post.

All around him I saw that there were items that were crying out for justice against him. This man was letting off atrocious cries. He was skeletal and had no flesh left. His bones were full of holes and he was in the fire burning incessantly.

All around him were object on the ground and these object were intact. They were not being consumed despite the ferocity of fire. As if these object had no connection with the fire, simply because the fire of hell was the judgment for damned souls of men.

The Lord told me to pay attention to these object. That's when I saw a lot of money, a telephone, and many clothes, including a state diploma.

I heard a female voice among these objects, saying to this man, "You have betrayed me." Then I saw a loin clothe brand new. These object let out voices of condemnation and demanded justice, saying, "You betrayed us."

The man was not concerned. He wanted to get rid of these object, but could not. He looked at us and cried with great sadness, "Lord, forgive me." I saw that it was as if these objects increase and reinforce the man torment.

As a result, rains of fire descended on his body and consumed him. He was crying with great scream. He had no eyes, only eyes socket that was spitting fire. Even when he spoke, fire gushed from his mouth. The man was an unrecognizable skeletal form. His voice allow us to identify whether he was a man or woman.

The man said, "Lord, please remember me and forgive me."

THE LORD’S RESPONSE AND JUDGMENT

The Lord was deeply sorry. He looked at him like a powerless man, unable to save him from this great doom.

The Lord looked at him and said, "In truth, you have destroyed the life of your fellow human, your partner. She trusted you and she has sacrificed herself for your life. But you took her money. You took her heart and you took her life. You took what was supposed to be for her study. You even took her dignity when she was suffering for you.

You acted in cold blood, especially when you continue in your evil way as if nothing has happened. You got married and she lost everything and she lost her future. This meant nothing for you. Even when you learn that she lost everything, the only way for you to come back to the right way is when you were on earth.

Now that you are dead, it's too late. Your faith is sealed. It's too late for you."

THE MAN’S REACTION AND BLASPHEMY

Upon hearing the Lord words, this man became antagonistic. He said, "Lord, your judgment is too severe. You are not just."

But the Lord said to him, "My judgment is just, for my love and justice, render each according to his deeds. Every wrongdoing and harm you inflict will be paid."

The Lord said, "Remember these words of my scripture, and for your lifeblood, I will surely demand an accounting. I will demand an accounting from every animal and from each human being. I will demand an accounting for the life of another human being."

But this man said, "Lord, your judgment is too severe." Then he began to insult the Lord, uttering blasphemies.

The Lord looked at him, and we turned away from the man whose bodies was reduced to rotten corpse, and there was stench, like a body burnt by fire and reduced to ashes.

When we move away from him, I wanted to understand the cause of this man condemnation in this place of torment and the severity of his torment.

He was burned alive with chains all over him. I could still hear his insult and blaspheme against the Lord. I said, "Lord, can't you grant him salvation and rest? This is unbearable."

Brothers, since you still have time, please give your life to Jesus and return to his way of holiness and renunciation. Don't be fooled by this world. In hell there is no refuge. You will not escape from the fire.

People bodies were plunged in the sea of fire that were like burning lava and they were chained in the hellfire.

THE STORY BEHIND HIS CONDEMNATION

That's when the Lord began to tell me the story of this doomed soul. He was born in a poor family. When his father died, he could no longer continue his high school studies and the hope of university study was shattered.

Back then he was living with a young lady who was also from a modest family. When this man daddy died, he thought this was the end of his studies. Since he could not continue his study, her girlfriend who was of modest family decided to sacrifice herself for him to finish his study.

In fact, she sold coal with her mother and the money that was given to her, she used it to pay for this man's study. She even went on to steal her mother money to support this man's study because she believed and had trusted in this man.

She said to this man, "You cannot give up your education. I know that your father is dead, but since you are the first born in your family, you must finish your study so that you can support your brothers and sisters, including your mother."

The lady continued to support this man's study in secondary school, including university. She invested a lot in this man life and brought him many things that you saw around that post where he is hanged.

BETRAYAL AND DECEPTION

When this man finished his study, he traveled to the country of Angola to seek a good life and get his partner, the young lady, to join him. But once he settled there in Angola and began to earn good money, sadly he forgot the woman who loved him and supported his study.

All these years, he got married and began a new life. The worst thing was that the man refused to tell the lady that he got married and began a new life. He kept telling the young lady to wait for him, he would come to get her.

He continued to lie to the woman that once he has the money he will come back to marry him. So this man married another woman but kept telling the lady to wait for him for many years saying he will come back to marry her.

It would have been better if he told the young that he was married so that the woman would know the truth and look for another man. But for many years this man kept lying to the woman, telling her to wait and that he will come back to marry her.

The lady went to church and began to serve God, hoping that one day the man will come back to marry her. After 15 years of waiting, the family of this man said to themselves, "What we are doing is not right. We must tell the lady the truth." They went on to reveal to the lady that the man she was waiting for was already married and have four children with the wife he married in Angola.

THE WOMAN’S DESPAIR, MAN’S HEARTLESS RESPONSE

We have decided to tell you the truth so that you can start over. But now how many years this man had spent in relationship with the young lady and [clears throat] the young lady upon learning this truth cried bitterly. She cried for many days in pain. She was so overwhelmed by the grief that she killed herself. She did not believe that she can start over and ended up killing herself because of hopelessness.

And when she died, finally the news had reached this man in Angola and he learned what happened to the young lady that had committed suicide. The strange thing is that this man felt no remorse and failed to displayed regret. And he said in arrogance, "What has she done for me? You can tell her family to tell me what she had done for me and I will pay back everything. Let them do the calculation. I will pay whatever she had done for me."

That was the attitude of this man. But several years later, this man also died, fell in hell. You saw him paying for the wickedness he has done in this lady life. That is why you saw these money the woman used to give him around the post where he was hanged. The state diploma that he got thanks to the lady support and the clothes around him that the woman bought for him demanding Jesus and saying you have betrayed me.

THE PRINCIPLE OF IMPRINT AND DIVINE ACCOUNTING

The Lord said to me every good thing done in your life bear the imprint of the person that did you good. When someone offers something the object he gave you bear his imprint. These imprint go through the scale of God and on the day of ingratitude this object will demand justice despite the smallness of the object obtained.

God see the intent of the heart of the giver and reaction of the receiver. The rules are the same in all area of giving. Whenever someone good, God apply the same rule.

When a man give you something, the first thing is to thank the person that has done you good. Any good obtained deserve recognition. Be grateful when someone offer you something. Later, if you find yourself having differences with a person, you should never deny the good he has done to you in the past.

You must learn to show your love and gratitude to every deed of goodness. Even if you don't agree with his gesture, given that the heart of the person is involved, you must show gratitude, the Lord said.

The third principle is that you can refuse the offer when you don't want it. When someone give you something and that your heart does not want it, just tell him that you don't want it. Tell the truth. Thank you for your offer. I really don't want it.

Don't take the offer and then begin to murmur and criticize. The Lord said God will place on the scale the intention of the one who give and God will judge the ingratitude of the receiver. You must be honest before the person that is offering you something.

What you don't want, tell the person frankly that you don't want it. Don't take and begin to criticize. Hypocrisy is observed by divine justice. Don't compare the offer and gift to the level of resources you have. What is small for you may be great in the eyes of God for someone else. Just don't compare with your resources.

The Lord Jesus Christ said with gravity on the day of judgment, God will demand justice on the ingratitude of men. Woe to him who is ungrateful to his fellow men. Every goodness and good act ignored and despised will find its echo in the infinite justice of God. God will not leave any unjust act without response.

Despite differences you may have with someone who gave you things, don't despise his offer just because you have differences. Don't deny the contributions of people in your life simply because you had made promises. You are not a product of hazard. Someone has contributed to your life for you to be there.

THE VALUE OF GOODNESS CANNOT BE REPAID, FINAL WARNINGS 

Jesus said, "There is no scale that can reimburse goodness people had done in your life. Even if someone gave you a handkerchief, given that you did not have it and was need and someone gave it to you, don't say to him, if you want, I can reimburse to you 50 handkerchief."

The Lord said, "When you put the 50 handkerchief and place them on God's scale, they will not weight heavier than the one handkerchief he gave you when you were in need. Learn to reimburse the good that people have shown in your life."

This man ended up in hell because of his exploitation of this young woman. I said, "Lord, that man was not married to the lady." The Lord asked me, "In order to be grateful, is the condition to be married or to be engaged? He could not get married to another woman under the pretext that it was an open relationship while his partner invested so much in her life all these years.

How many brothers and sisters have exploited people? You don't love the guy, still you take his money. When he catch you with another man, you have the gut to say, I do not love you. I love him. The Lord said that's theft. Yet he was the one investing in you, paying for what you lack. The Lord said that's theft.

If you do not love someone, don't exploit him. You don't like the person. Don't take their property. That's exploitation.

How many times we have exploited people trust in the end to demonstrate ingratitude. Someone help you get a job and when you are promoted in that job you ignore him and even oppose him. You let a man pay a house for you but you don't love him. That's theft. Someone pay for your academic but because of differences on some issue you despise his contribution.

Women that exploit men were trapped in this chamber of hell. We must understand that sins are not just forgiven in confession but also in restitution.

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I Saw Them in Hell Ayron Baxster

A terrifying vision of hell, in which a vast dark place filled with fiery vessels containing suffering souls. In desperation, the speaker called upon the name of Jesus Christ, and at the third call, a brilliant light rescued them from the torment. Jesus then spoke, telling them to warn the world that hell is real. Reflecting afterward, the speaker realized that those suffering in the vessels represented people who had lived in sexual sin and rebellion against God, emphasizing the truth of Scripture and the reality of divine judgment and salvation through Jesus Christ alone.

Howard Pittman Placebo

Howard Pittman, a Baptist minister, had a near-death experience in 1979 where he claimed to be shown the reality of the spiritual world. He described passing through the Second Heaven, seeing demons working to deceive mankind, and then approaching the Third Heaven, where only a few believers entered compared to the many who were turned away. Standing before God, Pittman realized that much of his ministry had been self-serving, like a “placebo” — outwardly religious but inwardly empty. God warned him that many professing Christians are deceived, merely “playing church” while failing to live genuine faith. His testimony serves as a wake-up call that true Christianity is more than words, requiring daily commitment, repentance, and authentic obedience to God.

On August 3, 1979, Howard Pittman, a Baptist minister for 35 years, died while on the operating  table during surgery and had a near-death experience. After angels showed him the second and  third heavens, he was taken before the very throne of God where he was given a message to share  with the world.  

The following is an excerpt from his booklet, Placebo, which documents his amazing near-death  experience. You can purchase his audio tapes and booklets at the Lake Hamilton Bible Camp  store.  

Forward 

Webster's Dictionary defines "placebo" as "a medication prescribed more for the mental relief of a  patient than for the actual effect on his disorder, or something tending to soothe."  

The doctors tell us that if we know we are being treated with a placebo, it does not work. In our minds we must think that it is a real medication and has the strength or power to heal. If the patient believes this, then the treatment has been known to work wonders in many cases that otherwise 

could not have been treated. Placebo treatment is, in fact, nothing of substance, but in the mind of  the patient it is real. In order for this kind of treatment to work, the doctor must convince the  patient of the work of the medication.  

My friend, I declare unto you that this is the exact "treatment" that most "mouth-professing"  Christians are using today. The doctor administering this "medication" is satan himself. He gives  the "patient" a sugar-coated religion, a shallow experience, and whispers half-truths into his ears.  He then tells the "patient" that it is real and that it is all the "patient" needs. The "patient", having  been taken in by satan, believes this and goes on his merry way declaring to all that he has been  born again, his salvation is real, and this experience is all that he needs. Doctor satan will allow his  "patient" to continue to go to church and will allow him to take part in any church, that is, singing,  leading in prayer, teaching Sunday School, and even preaching. He will allow the "patient" to  make any kind of statement in connection with his "mouth-professing" religion, even to the point  of the saving power of Jesus. Yes, he will allow the "patient" to do all and say all with one  exception. That exception is that the "patient" will not be allowed to live the life that he confesses  with his mouth ...  

Preparation  

In the year 1978, I retired from the New Orleans Police Department and moved my family to a  sixty-one acre farm in Mississippi. Around August 7, 1979 I was suddenly stuck with a grave and  disastrous illness. The night before the tragedy I went to bed as usual …On awakening that  morning I was slightly nauseated and skipped breakfast. My wife asked me if was not going to eat.  I replied that I had to hurry to keep my appointment with some folks who I hoped would support  my candidacy for sheriff with campaign contributions. I was unaware that God had also made an  appointment for me that day. Let me remind you that the Bible says that it is appointed once unto  man to die and, without warning, my appointment came. Like a flash of lightning, the main trunk  artery in my body cavity ruptured causing a devastating, sudden, blood loss …So at midnight they  carried me into ICU and at 6:00 a.m. the following morning, my vital life signs failed again. The  chief physician came out of ICU and told my wife, “It is something else.” They took me into  surgery where they worked on me for an additional seven hours ...  

[For the sake of brevity, a large amount of Pittman's description of his Emergency Room  experience is not reprinted here. Read his book for the full description.]  

Somewhere in that period of time when the physicians were working on me, I came to myself and  realized that I was dying …Knowing that only God could give me back my life and that only God  could change this appointed time to die, I prayed a strange prayer. My prayer was that God would  allow me to appear before His throne and pleaded for an extension of my physical life. In any  other time and place this sort of prayer would be unusual, however, all of this was planned by God  to ultimately serve His purpose. The thought to pray such a prayer was instilled in my mind by the  Holy Spirit ... 

Chapter 7: The Grand Tour  

What happens next is so incredible that some people find it hard to believe. May I say at the outset  that I know the difference between dreams, visions, and a real experience. May I also point out  that if you do not believe in satan and demons as being real, individual beings, then you do  yourself and the Kingdom of God a great disservice. It stands to reason that you cannot understand  or even withstand an enemy if you do not believe he is real.  

At the moment I resisted satan, he fled from me. The angels were there and they took my spirit  from my body. These angels were present all the time that satan tempted me although I did not  know it because I was still in the flesh. The angels did not attempt to help me until I had resisted  satan with my own will. The only help I had was the supernatural revelation from the Holy Spirit  that the voice I was hearing belonged to satan and not to God. Whether or not to obey that voice  was my choice.  

When the angels lifted my spirit from my body, they carried me immediately to the Second  Heaven. We did not have to leave that hospital room in order to enter the Second Heaven. We  entered there in that same room where my body was, just by passing through a dimension wall. It  is a wall which flesh cannot pass through, only spirit.  

For you the reader, to understand what was happening, you must understand the separation of the  spirit from the flesh. To know how this works, we must know how we, ourselves, are made. The  Bible states that we, as humans beings are made in the image of God. To understand this, we must  know what God is. The Bible states three immutable things about God: 1st God is Spirit, 2nd God  is invisible and 3rd God is immortal. If we are made in His image, then we are spirit, we are  invisible, and we are immortal. Therefore, when we look into a mirror we do not see our real  selves. We see only the body, or earthen vessel, in which we live. Since we are all made in the  image of God, we would all be mirror images of one another without our earthly, physical bodies.  Therefore, we were given a soul to separate us from one another to make us an individual.  

The animals in this world also have a soul. The only difference between their souls and ours is that  our soul belongs to the spirit. Their souls belongs to the body. When their body perishes, their soul  perish with it. When our body perishes, the soul remains with the spirit. When the spirit was lifted  from my body, my soul came with it. I suppose the simplest way to identify the soul would be to  say that it is one’s personality. The entire time I was away from my body I remained an individual,  that is, I retained my own personality. I retained all my faculties. In fact, they were greatly  enhanced.  

As we moved through that dimension wall into the Second Heaven, I found myself in an entirely  different world, far different from anything I had ever imagined. This world was a place occupied  by spirit beings as vast in number as the sands of the seashore. These beings were demons [devils],  or fallen angels, and were in thousands of different shapes and forms. Even those in similar shapes  and forms were contrasted by diverse coloring. Many of the demons were in human shapes or forms and many were in forms similar to animals familiar to our present world. Others were in  shapes and forms too hideous to imagine. Some of the forms were so morbid and revolting that I  was almost to the point of nausea.  

When I first arrived in the Second Heaven, I knew immediately in what direction I must go to  reach the Third Heaven where God was. I don’t know how I knew that, but I did. I also knew that  if I was going to get my prayer answered, I was going to have to appear before God the Father in  the Third Heaven. I was aware that I was traveling in that spirit world under the protection of the  Holy Spirit, and that the angels who were escorting me were also moving about under the  protection of the Holy Spirit. It might seem strange to you, the reader, that the angels needed the  protection of the Holy Spirit, but remember where we were, the Second Heaven. The Second  Heaven is the place where satan presently has his throne located. satan is not yet in Hell although  Hell is to be his final destiny.  

All the spirits in that world were aware of our presence and were aware of the Holy Spirit’s  protection over us. To give you an idea as to why that protection was necessary, let me give a  Bible reference to the power of satan as demonstrated in the Second Heaven. The tenth chapter of  the book of Daniel tells about God sending one of His angels to deliver a message to Daniel.  Because of the importance of that message, satan did not want it delivered. In order for the angel  sent from God in the Third Heaven to reach Daniel, he had to pass through the Second Heaven.  satan sent one of his princes, or one of his archangels, to stop the angel. The angel had to fight and  could not get through alone so he had to call for reinforcements. God had to send one of His  princes, or the archangel, to help the messenger and even this took twenty–one days. After the  angel delivered the message, he reminded Daniel that he, the angel, would have to fight his way  back through the Second Heaven.  

As we moved about there in that world, I was greatly disappointed that my escort did not take me  in the direction of the Third Heaven where God was. Instead, we moved in the opposite direction.  As we moved from place to place in that world, I learned many things about demons.  

I did things differently in the spirit realm than what we do here in the physical world. For instance,  we do not communicate with our mouths and ears, but rather, we communicated with our minds. It  was like projecting our words on thought waves and receiving the answer the same way. Although I could still think to myself without projecting, I discovered that this really did not benefit me  because the angels could read my mind.  

I could hear different sounds in that world, but I did not hear with my ears. I heard with my mind,  but I was still able to “hear” those sounds. When we traveled, we traveled mostly at what I call the  “speed of thought.” When we traveled at the “speed of thought,” there was no sensation of  movement. The angel would say where we were going and we were there. There were other times  when we did not travel in that manner, and I was very much aware of movement while traveling.  One of those times when I was aware of movement was when they brought me back into the physical world and allowed me to see the demons working here. We moved about here somewhat  like floating on a cloud. Still, I had the sensation of movement.  

Make no mistake about demons for they are very real. The Bible makes more statements about  demons than it does about angels and it points out in Luke 10:18 that demons are evil. Mark 5:8-9 indicates how numerous they are and Matthew 10:1 shows that they are unclean. Matthew  12:21-30 states that they are under the command of satan and Matthew 8:29 shows that they can  possess humans.  

In the demon world, there is a division of power much like a military structured chain command  with rank and order. Certain demons carry the title of prince, which is always the demon in charge  of a principality. A principality is a territory, an area, a place or a group that may range in size  from as large as a nation to as small as a person. When satan assigns a prince a task, the prince is  given the authority to act in the name of satan and use whatever means necessary or available to  him to accomplish his task.  

When we started the tour of the Second Heaven, the angels began by showing me the different  types of demons. Each demon was revealed to me in a form that indicated his area of expertise,  and I soon discovered that there is no such thing as a “general practitioner” in all the demon world.  They have only one area of expertise which they do very well.  

Chapter 8: Demons  

As each type of demon was pointed out to me, I quickly discovered a social order, or rank, that existed among them. Those at the top of that order were revealed in forms similar to humans. As we moved down the order, or rank, I saw demons in shapes or forms that looked like half–animal and half–human. I saw demons in forms resembling animals we know in this present world and I saw demons in forms and shapes so revoltingly morbid that you cannot possibly imagine them. At the very top of the order were the warring demons which were the “cream” of satan’s “crop.” They moved about the Second Heaven and were always traveling in groups, never alone. Wherever they went, all other demons  moved out of their way. These warring demons were revealed to me in human form. They looked  like humans with the exception that they were giants. Appearing to be about eight feet tall, they  were rugged and handsomely constructed, somewhat like giant athletes. All of the warring  demons were colored bronze. They were giant, bronze soldiers. All of the other demons seemed to  be subject to them.  

The second most powerful type demon was also revealed to me in human form and these demons  looked like ordinary people. All of those possessing this area of expertise seemed to group together at about the second place of command. Chief among this group was the demon of greed  and contained within this same group were demons of hate, lust, strife, and a few others.  

The third most powerful type and group of demons were revealed to me in mixed shapes and forms. Some had human form while others had half–human and half–animal forms. Others resembled animals in their forms. These demons possessed skills in the dark arts area such as witchcraft and other related areas. Also among this group were demons of fear and the demons of self–destruction as well as those demons which are expert in mimicking departed human spirits [familiar spirits] and in manifesting themselves to the physical world as ghosts.  

When we got down to the fourth group, or order, all the demons of this rank were revealed in  forms other than human. Some had forms like known animals while others had unknown forms. In  this group were the demons of murder, brutality, sadism, and others related to carnage.  

As we moved even further down the order toward the end of the chain of command, all the  demons were revealed in horrible and morbid forms. Some were so revolting that their appearance  produced nausea. They are so despised by their own companions that they always seem to be lurking off to themselves while in the Second Heaven and even while in this physical world. They  do not associate with the other demons except in the line of their duty.  

There was another group of demons that I was able to see, but I do not recall much of their ability.  It was purposely taken away from me as I was not permitted to learn or retain too much memory  about them. I don’t even know where they rank in order and their form was not revealed to me. I  am not sure of their entire area of expertise, however, I am vaguely aware of their powerful hold  on the flesh. It seems that this mysterious group of demons work differently from all other demons  and are used in only special cases and special situations of which I do not clearly understand. As I  stated, I was not permitted to retain too much in my memory about this particular group of demons.  I was only permitted to retain that portion which I am now reporting to you and this, in itself, is  very vague.  

I’m also aware that these particular demons are harder to deal with than any of the rest. It seems their great strength rests in their ability to remain anonymous in their work in the human being. Among this group is the one that is able to manifest himself as a form of epilepsy in the human. I am not sure but I seem to recall that some other demons in some of the other groups also have the ability to mimic epilepsy. I do not know if demons cause epilepsy, per se, but I do recall very vividly that they can mimic this condition in human beings. At one time during this tour of the Second Heaven, I watched the demons within their own related group and I experienced an awful feeling. It was an overwhelming, oppressive, and morbid feeling. This feeling came to me shortly  after I had entered the Second Heaven and I wondered what was causing it. It was at this time that  I learned that the angel could read my mind because my guardian angel said to me, “That feeling  you are wondering about is caused by the fact that there is no love in this world.” The angel was  telling me that in this Second Heaven there is not one bit of love! Wow! Can you imagine all of  those demons serving a master they don’t love and the master ruling over beings that he doesn’t  love? Worse than that, these companions are working together for an eternity and they do not even  love each other.  

I started reflecting on what our physical world, called the First Heaven, would be like without love.  If God had not introduced His love her in our world, then we would be living in a no–love  atmosphere like the Second Heaven. By God giving us His love, we are able to return that love  and then love one another. Can you imagine what it would be like in your own home or your community it was totally void of love?  

When I was made aware of the fact that no love existed among the demons, I wondered even more  about their motivation and zeal. What makes them work so hard? What makes them carry out  orders so rapidly? They don’t love one another, yet they carry out these orders so quickly and with  such zeal that any military organization on Earth would be proud to have such loyal and obedient  employees. I wonder if their motivation could have anything to do with the judgment and sentence  that awaits them. It seems that since their first rebellion ages ago while in the Third Heaven, they  have reached a place in their existence where they can no longer rebel. Whatever it is that  motivates them seems to excel in their very being while they, in turn, are expressing their fury  upon the flesh. It may just be that the only enjoyment of their entire existence is to create misery  for the flesh. Even though I was permitted to go among them and watch them while they worked,  many things were not explained fully or made clear to me. Some of the things that I saw in entirely,  I was not permitted to retain in my memory. I knew the high order of the demons resented my presence and would have withstood me had I not been under the protection of the Holy Spirit. One of the warring demons came right up to me and leered into my face, but I did not flinch for I was  not afraid. I knew it would not be me with whom he would have to contend but, instead, it would  be He who brought me, the Holy Spirit. The demons in the middle order seemed to totally ignore  me and went about their existence as if I were not there. Those of the lower order seemed to  display slight fear of me or fear of the angel that was escorting me, however, the higher order of  demons had no fear of me or the angel.  

My escort informed me that he wanted me to see a demon in the process of actually possessing a  human being. At this point in the trip, I was escorted back through the dimension wall separating  the Second Heaven from the physical world. When we came back into this world, we were in the  same hospital with my body but in a different room. The room appeared to be an employee’s  lounge. I saw tables, chairs, dishes with food, and in the room were a young man and a young lady  facing each other while laughing and talking. It was obvious that they could not see the angels, yet  I was so close to them I could almost reach out and touch them. I could hear and understand every  word they said. They thought they were alone and as they laughed and talked, they were unaware of the horrible creature standing between them. This demon was so horrible in the appearance of  his shape and form that I recognized him immediately to be from the lower group, the perverted  group. The angels, the demons, and I were in the spirit in that room and were aware of everything  that was happening. Those in the flesh were only aware of themselves for they could not see or  hear us even though we were back in this physical world. Since we were in the spirit, we still  communicated with our minds.  

I was not really paying close attention to the words the two were speaking. My entire attention was focused upon the demon. He was a most horrible looking thing, reminding me of an over–grown, stuffed, slimy, green frog all out of shape and proportion. He moved slowly up into the face of the man then, suddenly, like a puff of smoke, he seemed to disappear into the face, just as if he went through the pores of his skin. When the demon had entered the man, the angels said, “Now it’s done.” The angel then proceeded to tell me how it was that this man was possessed. He stated, “The demon made himself desirable and attractive to the human.” The angel then pointed out to me that mankind has a sovereign will, all his own, beyond which the demons cannot come. He also pointed out to me that the angels could not come beyond that  sovereign will of man. God, Himself, will not violate that will. We are made in the image of God,  therefore, we were given, like God, a sovereign will, the right to choose our destiny. I was not  permitted to retain all that I learned along these lines.  

I faintly recall that there is another process under certain given circumstances whereby demons  may possess or be allowed to enter small children. It seems as though those demons from that  mysterious group are the ones that are allowed to do this. From what I recall about this, it is only  under the most unusual circumstances that this can happen. According to what the angels told me,  over ninety percent of all cases of demon activity in human beings is restricted to those humans  who are at or over the age of accountability.  

During the course of this talk the angel was giving me, he pointed out that all of God’s children  have been given power over all demons and can cast them out, however, this power is based on the  faith of the Christian. It will only work when the Christian knows without a doubt what he is doing.  There are certain Christians who have received a special gift in this area. They are those who have  been called specifically by the Holy Spirit to a deliverance ministry and in almost every case,  those called to a deliverance ministry have also received the gift of discernment. When one is  commanding demons, it is most important to know what spirit one is dealing with. In those rare  cases where children are possessed [not so rare anymore folks… a number of children are  possessed today because of the opened doors to the enemy.], it takes a special effort and divine  insight in each case to deliver them. Such a case was reported in the Bible in Matthew 17:14-21.  All Christians potentially have the ability to command demons. 

My escort told me that they wanted me to see demon activity in the outside world. I was then  escorted outside the hospital directly through the brick wall into the streets of that city. I was  amazed as I watched all the activity of the humans in the physical world. Going about their daily  pursuit, they were completely unaware that they were being stalked by beings from the spirit  world. I was totally flabbergasted as I watched and horrified as I saw the demons in all shapes and  forms as they moved at will among the humans.  

While I learned about demons not being able to work in a person’s life against their will, I also  learned the angels cannot do it either. Each born again Christian has a guardian angel and before  that Christian’s life is over, it might take a whole host of angels to keep him. I learned that  guardian angels fight for us, but they cannot fight in the area of our will. The fighting they do is  sort of like protecting our “blind” side. They oppose the demons when the demons come against us outside the area of our will.  

They cannot oppose the demons when the demons come against us through our own will. Remember, we are made in the image of God, like God, we have a sovereign will. I learned that the demons will fight the angels if they must, but they prefer not to do so. They find that it is easier and safer to destroy us through our own will where the angels are unable to interfere, rather than go outside our will where they would have to fight angels personally. Because of this, the demons have developed great skills in the area of deception. They move through our lives by deceit and trickery and keep us totally unaware of their activity.  

I was made aware of the fact that not all demons are in the Second Heaven. There are some  demons so awesome that they are reserved in chains in Hell, however, satan and his army of  demons are not in Hell, presently. Neither do they want to be there. I was not permitted to look  into Hell, nor was I permitted to view the chained demons. I do know that these demons who are  chained went beyond the limitations of their domain.  

God in His wisdom has allowed satan and his demons certain bounds or limitations within which  they may work. They may not go beyond those limitations established by the Lord, however,  those demons who are chained in Hell did just that. Because they went beyond the restrictions  established by the Lord, they are now chained in Hell.  

The Bible points out this fact in many places, especially in the book of Jude. Any time satan goes  beyond those bounds, he must receive permission from God. In the case of Job, he was granted the  permission, but in Peter’s case he was not granted permission. The demons who work in children  under the age of accountability are allowed to do so only after obtaining this special permission. [I  might add that a “legal” door was opened by certain sin or sins that gave the demon/s a right in the  first place… ] It was not made plain to me what sort of circumstances must be present for God to  grant permission, although it was made clear that in certain circumstances permission is granted. 

However, permission to work in children under the age of accountability is rarely granted. [Look  around since he got this, things have changed folks, satanic doors have been opened… more by  parents.] The majority of the time satan is denied this special permission, but in these last days we  can expect a substantial increase I demonic activity, not only in adults but in children as well. This  increase in demonic activity is what the Lord warned us about in Mark 13:22 when He spoke of  the incredible miracles that false prophets would perform in the last days. It is difficult to  understand why the Lord would allow demons to work through children…  

The demons that are reserved in chains did not obtain permission for their activity which violated  the restrictions established by our Lord. Their illegal deeds are recorded in Genesis 6:2-5. Because  they did not obtain permission, they received immediate punishment. Specific punishment for the  devil and his demons is scheduled for the end–time and is recorded in Revelation 20:1-3. As you  well know, the lake of fire was created for the devil and his demons as their eternal fate.  

In this age we must be on guard for satan’s fiery darts of deception and temptation that are allowed  within the limitations of the Lord’s permissive will. There is a time limit set by the Lord in which  demons may work, but that time period has not yet been fulfilled. As Christians we are able to  have them “bound” under the authority of Jesus, however, this is NOT permanent. We can NOT  cast them into HELL for only God can do this. That is why it is very important for someone who  has just been delivered to be properly instructed to remain in the Lord’s will, lest they become  afflicted again. A Christian CAN cast out demons from a lost person, but unless that person gets  saved and abides in the Lord’s will, there will be the possibility of the demons returning. [See  Matthew 12:43-45].  

Demons are real, individual, spirit beings and they are the ones manipulating all the evil in the  world today. This was shown to me while I was in the spirit world traveling through the street of a  city and watching in horror as the demons went about their task of corrupting humans.  

Although humans are spirit beings, we are confined to physical bodies. The great spiritual warfare  that rages today is between the “spirit of man” and the “spiritual forces” of evil directed by satan  which are contending for control and manipulation of our fleshly, physical bodies. Our spirits  fight by faith and through our sovereign will; while the devil and his [fallen] angels fight through  deceit, cunning, trickery, and temptation. You must make no mistake about this war or the  weapons involved because the scriptures are plain. I actually saw these demons contend for  control of that human body.  

It may seem to you that mankind is vastly over–powered by these spirits because these spirits are  able to see and hear everything we think, say, and do; while we are totally unable to perceive any  of their activities. It is very difficult to fight an enemy you cannot see, hear, and feel, but as long as  you trust the Lord, you have nothing to fear. At times, even the strongest Christian may doubt their  existence and activities, thus making it easier for them. However, man was not left defenseless.  Being made in the image of God, man, like God, has a sovereign will and no spirit can violate that  will without the permission of the person himself. Because of this, these demons have developed great skills in deception. The basic principle of their operations is to make something evil as desirable, beautiful, and non–threatening as possible so that the person being tempted will lower  his guard and accept whatever it is that is being used to cause SIN. Once someone is deceived, it  becomes easier for the deception to remain. In the case of possession, it becomes easier for the  demon to maintain his control.  

Another great defense man has is the guardian angel. The guardian angel is not assigned to all mankind, but only to those who are “saved and belong to God.” Remember, just like the demons the guardian angel cannot violate the will of any man which is why most of his activity is reserved to protecting that individual outside his sovereign will. Man’s greatest weapon, however, is the Word of God. In his description of the weapons  

used in our spiritual warfare, Paul insists the Word of God [Ephesians 6:11-18] as the only  offensive weapon mankind has. Although vastly outnumbered by these beings [thousands to one  individual], man is adequately prepared for battle. Because of a sovereign will, guardian angels,  and the Word of God, man has superior defense and is much more potent in the battle for his soul  than the demons.  

Therefore, I say to everyone — if you are serious in your commitment to fight this war and win,  fear not! Your commander–in–chief, teacher, healer and sustainer — the Holy Spirit — will  NEVER leave you NOR forsake you.  

Chapter 9: The Way Home 

When the angels decided that I had seen enough of the demons at work in this physical world, I was taken back into the Second Heaven just by passing through the dividing, dimension wall. Once back inside the Second Heaven, my escort guided me in the direction of the Third Heaven and I was happy at last. After all, this was where I had wanted to go all the time. Even at this stage, my physical life was still my primary concern.  

Suddenly we came to a most beautiful place. I know that I’ve already reported how terrible that the Second Heaven was, so you can imagine how surprising it was to find anything beautiful over there. God would not allow me to retain the memory of why this place was so beautiful. I do  remember that it was the most beautiful place I’d ever seen. This place looked like a tunnel, a roadway, a valley or some sort of highway. It had a most brilliant light all its own and was  completely surrounded with an invisible shield. I knew that the invisible shield was the protection  of the Holy Spirit.  

Walking in this tunnel, or along that roadway, or valley, or whatever, was what appeared to be  human beings. I asked my escort who they were. He told me, “They are saints going home.” These  were the departed spirits of Christians who had died on Earth and they were going home. Each of  these saints was accompanied by at least one guardian angel and some had a whole host of angels  with them. I wondered why some saints were accompanied by only one angel and others had  many. I was watching as the saints passed through the way that all saints must take to go home.  Here it was, the passageway from Earth to the Third Heaven. I found that only “authorized” spirits  were allowed in that tunnel. No demon was permitted there.  

When my escort had finished explaining to me about the homeward trip of the saints. I started into  the tunnel. The angel stopped me and told me that we had to travel alongside the tunnel and not  inside of it. I traveled, therefore parallel with but outside the tunnel where the saints were. While  we were traveling alongside the tunnel, we did not move at the “speed of thought.” Instead, we  traveled as it floating on a cloud. In other words, there was no cloud but the mode of traveling felt  as if I were floating on a cloud.  

I could see the saints at all times moving along inside the tunnel. They were in the form and shape  of humans, yet I could not detect any race, age, or sex. They were all clothed alike with the  garments appearing to be made up of two pieces. There was a blouse or shirt and a pair of slacks.  The color of the garments was a pastel, baby blue with one of the garment pieces being a shade  lighter than the other piece. The blue was so light that it was almost white. I realize that these  saints I was viewing had not yet received their glorified body because that must wait until the first  resurrection.  

At first I was disappointed that I was not permitted to travel in the tunnel with the saints, but the  disappointment was eased when I was told that we were going to the same place they were going.  After all, I knew that if my physical life was going to be extended, I would have to appear before  God. Even now, my physical life was still the uppermost thing to me.  

As we traveled along, I noticed all around me that the demons were beginning to drop behind. The  Gates came into view and the closer we got to those Gates, the farther behind fell the demons.  When we arrived before the Gates there were no demons in view. Although the Gates of the Third  Heaven opened out into the Second Heaven, no demon could come close.  

Instead of allowing me to enter, the angel stationed me before the Gates, slightly to one side. He  instructed me to stay there and watch as the saints were permitted to enter into Heaven. As the  saints were allowed into Heaven, I noticed a strange thing. They were permitted to enter only one  at a time. No two were permitted to enter those Gates at the same time. I wondered about this but  it was never explained to me. I’ve studied about this often since I have returned and now I think I  know why. I believe this is a tribute or a salute to the individual. After all, that individual made the choice with his own sovereign will. Remember, it had been pointed out to me specifically that we,  as images of the Living God, possess a sovereign will through which we have the right to choose  our own destiny.  

As the saints were being admitted, I was wondering why I was not being allowed to do what I  came to do. I was so impatient to get my request before God that I missed the whole point of what  I saw. This point was so important that the Holy Spirit told me Himself. I watched the fifty saints  enter Heaven, but the point I missed was the time frame involved. It was explained to me that at the same time those fifty saints died on Earth, 1,950 other humans also died; or only 50 out of  2000 made it into Heaven. That other 1,950 were not there. Where were they? That was only 2 ½  percent going to Heaven! Ninety seven point five percent did not make it! Is that representative of  the entire world today? If so, 97 ½ percent of the population of this world today is not ready to  meet God. The sad part, my friend, is that it is exactly representative of this Laodicean Church  Age in which we live today. We are now in the time when the great majority of church goers are  only “mouth–professors” and not “heart–possessors.”  

At the outset, I stated that I would not try to convince anyone of anything I said. However, I would  like to offer as evidence the parable of the sower as told by Jesus in the thirteenth chapter of the  book of Matthew. If you read this chapter closely, you will notice that three out of every four  people who heard the gospel preached, turned it down. That is seventy–five percent anyway you  look at it. I am talking about three out of every four people who bothered to hear the gospel, turned  it down! The sad part about this is the overwhelming majority of the people that did turn the  gospel down, do not know that they have turned it down! They have bought a lie of satan and have  been deceived. They have been led to believe something that is not the truth and they been fooled  by satan into rejecting the gospel! Place the seventy–five percent who turned down the gospel  with those in the world who made no pretense of hearing the truth and you have the overwhelming  ninety seven and one-half percent of the population today!  

As I contemplate this fact. I now understand the Lord’s disgust with the Laodicean–type Church.  I also clearly understand the verses of scripture in Matthew 7:22-23 that describes how many  people will stand before the Throne at the Judgment pleading. “Lord, Lord, have we not  prophesied in thy Name? And in thy Name cast out devils? And in thy name done many wonderful  works?” only to have the Lord say to them, “I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work  iniquity…”  

Chapter 10: The Rude Awakening 

My escort told me to stand to one side of the Gates and present my case. He assured me that God  would hear and answer my request. As I stood before the Gates, the sense of joy, happiness, and  contentment radiated out from Heaven. I could feel the warmth it produced and as I stood there to  plead my case. I could feel the awesome power of God. No being could possibly appear before  Him, even separated by a gate as I was, without experiencing this awesome power, might and 

majesty. At first I had a sense of fear, sort of guilty feeling that is always produced in me when I  believe I have imposed on others. In my mind’s eye I could just visualize a busy God who was  annoyed with me for taking Him away from important things. Then, just as suddenly as this  feeling came, it passed. I then found strength or boldness in my belief that I had served my God  faithfully for many years. To me, I was convinced that this request of mine would be a snap!  

Boldly I came before the throne and started out by reminding God what a great life of love,  worship, and sacrifice I had lived for Him. I told Him of all the works I had done reminding Him  that I was now in trouble and only He could help by granting me an extension on my physical life.  God was totally silent while I spoke. When I had completed my request, I heard the real, audible  voice of God as He answered me.  

The voice I heard was not like the sweet voice that satan had used to trick me before in the valley.  You could put together the noise of all the storms, volcanoes, tornadoes, and hurricanes and they  could in no way imitate what I heard. The sound of His voice was in no way like the sweet voice I  talked about earlier. The sound of His voice came down on me from over the Gates even before  the words hit me. The tone of His anger knocked me on my face as God proceeded to tell me just  what kind of life I had really lived. He told me what He really thought of me and even other people  who lived as I did. He pointed out that my faith was DEAD, that my works were NOT  ACCEPTABLE, and that I had labored in VAIN. He told me that it was an abomination for me to  live such a life and then dare call it a life of worship. Furthermore, He said to those who do it, they  are in danger of experiencing His everlasting wrath. As God dealt with me, He displayed His  wrath to me. Notice, it was not His everlasting wrath. He did say there are some who will experience His everlasting wrath.  

I could not believe He was talking to me in this manner! I had served Him for years! I thought I  had lived a life pleasing to Him! As He was enumerating my wrongs, I was sure He had me  confused with someone else. There was no strength left in me to even move, let alone protest, yet  I was panicking within myself. No way He could be talking about me! All of these years I thought  I was doing those works for God! Now He was telling me that what I did, I did for myself. Even as  I preached and testified about the saving grace of Jesus Christ, I was doing that only for myself in  order that my conscience might be soothed. In essence, my first love and first works were for  myself. After MY needs and wants were met or satisfied, in order to soothe my conscience I  would set out to do the Lord’s work. This made my priorities out of order and unacceptable.  Actually, I had become my own false God.  

He makes it plain in His teachings that He is a jealous God and will have no other gods before Him;  flesh, stone, blood, or whatever. He will have no other gods before Him. God told me that He  would not accept this kind of worship in the day of the Pharisees and He certainly was not about to  accept it now in this the Laodicean Church Age. He put it to me as plain as words and actions  could make it. In order for our works to be acceptable, we must work according to His command  in Matthew 6:33 which empathically states, “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His  righteousness; and all these other things shall be added to you.” As God told me about my true motives, the verse of scripture in Matthew 16:24-26 and Luke 14:26-33 became so clear to me. In  Matthew 16 it states, “Then said Jesus unto His disciples, If any man will come after me, let him  DENY himself and take up his cross, and follow me, for whosoever shall save his life shall lose  it; and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it.” In Luke 14 beginning with verse 26  it is stated, “If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children,  and brethren, and sisters, yea, and HIS OWN life also, he cannot be my disciple. And  whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple. For which of you,  intending to build a tower, sitteth not down first, and counteth the cost, whether he have  sufficient to finish it?” In verse 23 of this same chapter Jesus makes the following statement  which is the cornerstone of the two portions of scripture previously stated: “So likewise,  whosoever he be of you that forsaketh not ALL that he hath, he cannot be my disciple.”  

Only now as I was here before Him being chastised did those two portions of scripture become  crystal clear to me as to their true meaning. As God told me about my TRUE MOTIVES, I could  see plainly for the first time how MY WORKS were DEAD. Because God was displaying His  wrath toward me, I could not stand nor could I speak. No strength was left within me as I was  nothing more than a wet rag lying there writhing in agony. It indeed, was fortunate for me that this  was not God’s everlasting wrath, only temporary wrath. However, at this time I did not know this  was only temporary.  

It needs to be stated that at no time while God was chastising me did He say I was not saved nor  did He say that my name was not in the Lamb’s Book of Life. He never mentioned salvation to me  at all but only spoke about the works produced through my life. He told me the type of life I lived  was an unacceptable life for a true Christian. As He spoke to me of my dead works, he indicated  that there are some people who are not saved but think they are. These people will experience His  everlasting wrath. He also made it plain to me that there are others of His children who will find  themselves in my present condition on Judgment Day. This revealed to me the true meaning of 1  Corinthians 3:15 which states, “If any man’s works shall be burned, he shall suffer loss: but he  himself shall be saved; yet so as by fire.”  

There are no words that can describe the pain I endured as God’s wrath was upon me for this life  of so–called service. The agony was beyond the scope of the imagination and the remorse that I  felt produced a very heavy burden similar to a physical weight pinning me down or an enormous  stone crushing me. Growing weaker and weaker, my mind was frantically racing in an effort to  grasp what the Lord was telling me while recalling each actual incident. God leaves no room for  error and that includes whatever is in our minds.  

The surprise was so overwhelming in its magnitude that it rendered me senseless. My strength left  me immediately, just as though I had been hit by a bolt of lightning. Even if God would have  ceased and allowed me to speak on word of protest, I would not have been able to do so. I had  absolutely no strength whatsoever to utter anything. In my mind I was constantly DENYING the  wrong in my life while acknowledging the fact that I had committed them. My conscience was  asleep but my mind was NOT. 

Slowly, it all began to be absorbed by me. Remember how the Bible tells us to have no other gods  before us? I had thought that the Most High God was the only God of my life, but I was not  fulfilling that part of scripture which tells us that if we allow anything to come between us and the  Lord, (whatever it may be) it becomes our “God.” I realized that each day of my life was devoted  only to MYSELF! My whole life I was preoccupied with MY needs FIRST and THEN I was  concerned with what the Lord wanted. The money to help the church, the poor, or anything else  was secondary because I was my OWN “god.” Naturally, the devil was contented with allowing  me to remain in that condition because as long as I was in that condition, I was of no use to the  Lord and His kingdom.  

I allowed this to occur because I was really indifferent to the things of the Lord. It was too  uncomfortable to change and I was convinced I could remain as I was without having to really DO  anything (such as following the Lord’s commandment about DENYING myself and picking up  my cross daily to follow HIM.) For this reason, my life was wasted and amounted to absolutely  nothing in the Lord’s eyes.  

I hope that you understand what it is that I am saying because it is the whole point of this chapter.  The fact is we must prove we are really Christians by first examining our motives behind each  deed in our lives, and then repenting and recommitting ourselves to follow the Lord daily. When  we decide to serve Him FIRST, this decision must be followed by ACTION or it will be as useless  as if we did not decide to do so in the first place.  

Chapter 11: My Real Father  

When God was through with me the interview was over as suddenly as one would turn off a faucet.  I was not allowed to linger or even reflect on what God said. The angels immediately carried me  away as if I were as wet rag having no strength in myself. Totally annihilated, I could not even  gather my thoughts.  

The angels carried me back through the Second Heaven, through the dimension wall, and into the  hospital room where my body was lying. It was not until I reached the bed upon which my body  lay did I regain my composure. As I regained my composure, I vehemently protested, “No! No!” I  told the angels, “God did not answer me! He did not say yes or no to my request! Please, oh please,  take me back!” I pleaded with the angels.  

God is a God of order and He never does anything haphazardly. Since all of this entire experience  had been planned by God, the angels complied with my request to take me back. God was dealing  with me gently and tenderly through His great LOVE knowing what was necessary for me to  experience in order for me to have the scales fall off my eyes.  

During the time God was displaying His wrath toward me, I thought this wrath was terrible and  painful. I found out later that it was nothing compared to the pain the lost will experience when  they receive His everlasting wrath. 

While in route back to the Third Heaven, I was beside myself trying to come up with a logical  reason or legitimate basis on which to plead my case. God had already told me that my life had  been a failure, therefore, I could not offer my past life as evidence of my intentions to serve Him.  Somehow or another, the thought of Hezekiah came to my mind. When God sent word for him to  put his house in order, he cried and prayed and God heard him. God extended his life for fifteen  years. I remembered from my studies about him that Hezekiah was the “good–old–boy” type,  similar to me. I remembered how he had good intentions in his heart but how he had trouble  translating out those intentions into everyday living. Since this seemed to be the same kind of  trouble I had in my life, I concluded that God dealt with Hezekiah based on the intentions of his  heart. Because of this assumption, I concluded this reasoning would be the basis of my plea.  

Upon my arrival back before the third heaven, I was brought to the same place from which I had  previously pleaded my case. Not nearly so bold this time, I remembered how God's wrath had  floored me beforehand. Nevertheless, I had asked God for a favor and God had not answered.  Wanting his answer no matter what it was, I timidly started pleading my case again.  

This time God did not knock me down but let me talk. God did not talk to me in anger but started  out answering me in a tone of pity. Before it was all over, God was speaking in sorrow.  

Opening my plea by quoting scriptures to God, I began by telling him all about Hezekiah. I told  God that I figured out that Hezekiah was the "good-old-boy" type, that the intentions of his heart  were pure, but he seemed to be unable to translate out those intentions into everyday living. Here  I was, an insignificant nothing and the smallest creature in all his universe, bartering words with  this great and awesome God who had created it all.  

I said, "Father, if You will grant this request, I promise you I will do better the next time."  

The Lord answered me thusly, "Howard Pittman, you have promised before." God did not have to  say another word. There they were, all the promises I had made to a holy God in my past entire life.  Not one of them remained whole. Somehow, someway, I had managed to break them all. With  nothing left to say, no words in all my vocabulary, nowhere to go, I fell on my knees before him.  All I could say was "Amen" to my own condemnation. I knew that if at that moment God would  banish me into the pits of hell, it would be just to say "amen" to my own condemnation.  

At that moment God did not demand justice but showed me mercy. The scales fell from my eyes  and my soul was suddenly filled with light. That powerful, awesome, all-consuming God was now  not evident. There on that throne dealing with me was my REAL Father. God was no longer a  distant God, but a real, genuine Father. The realization of his being my true Father and my best  friend came to me for the first time in my life. The wonderful relationship I had enjoyed with my  physical father and the wonderful love we shared for each other was suddenly brought to mind yet  magnified a thousand fold. For now I was with my real Father, the one who loved me so much that  God left all of his creation to deal with me, the prodigal son. 

For the first time in my life, I saw in my mind's eye who God really is. For the first time I met God  as God truly is, my real Father, my very best friend. As the realization of who God is flooded my  soul, great and painful sorrow also came. Sorrow came when I realized that through disobedience  I had hurt my Father. This realization and sorrow produced actual pain which was not just a guilt  feeling but actual pain similar to what one would experience in the flesh when one sustains a  physical injury. At this point in time, God started dealing with me in sorrow and no longer did the  tone of his voice express pity. Instead, the sound was of genuine sorrow. I suddenly realized that  God was hurting too. God was hurting because I was hurting. Being a true and just God as God is,  God had to allow me to suffer the pain and God could not lift it from me. Although God had to  allow me to suffer the pain, God would not allow me to suffer it alone. God the most High, the  most Supreme, the Creator of all, the Father of all would not let me suffer alone.  

By this time I suddenly realized that my physical life was not so important after all. What I was really concerned about now was what my Father wanted. His will had suddenly become the first thing of my life and my physical life was no longer important. This is when God gave me back my physical life. Only when I reached a place that my life did not mean anything to me, did God give it back to me. Now that the prodigal son had returned, the Father could talk at last. God could tell me what my trip to heaven was all about and that God had a message God wanted me to tell people on earth.  

Chapter 12: Wake Up!  

I now repeat for you point by point the entire five point message that God gave me to deliver to this world today: 

  • Point Number 1: For those who call themselves Christians, this is the Laodicean Church Age in which we live. A high majority of so-called Christians are, in fact, living a deceived life. They talk Jesus and play church, but do not live it. They claim to be Christians and then live like the devil. They have bought the great lie from satan who tells them that they are alright. He tells them that it is alright to go to church on Sunday and attend mid-week services but as far as the rest of the time is concerned, they are to get all they can out of life. As far as their Christian life is concerned, they  believe they are comfortable and have need of nothing and as a result, they are only lukewarm  Christians if Christians at all.  
  • Point Number 2: satan is a personal devil.  
  • Point Number 3: To the whole world, this is Noah's second day. As it was in the days of Noah, so  shall it be in the days of the coming of the son of man. Humans took no thought of what Noah was  saying nor did humans believe that anything was about to change. Humanity could see the storm clouds over the horizon, but yet did not believe the rain was imminent. Notice the close parallel  today. Humanity can see all the signs of the last days, yet humanity does not believe that anything  will change. He does not believe in the impending coming of our Lord and he does not prepare to  meet God."  
  • Point Number 4: For those who claim to be Christians, they are supposed to be ambassadors for  Christ here on earth. One cannot have any true witness or power in his life unless that one lives his  Christian faith at all times, twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week. To be a true Christian one  must live it, not just talk it. To honor God with your lips and not your heart is not acceptable.  Those who accept the responsibility of teaching, preaching, or any leadership role have much for  which to answer.  
  • Point Number 5: God is now in the process of recruiting an army with which God will shake this  old world one more time. By working through his soldiers, God will produce great miracles that  will shake the established hierarchy of the so-called organized religion that is in this world today.  These soldiers that God is now recruiting will demonstrate the power of God to a greater extent  than did the disciples in the Pentecostal age. Now the recruitment has begun in earnest because  God is about to perform the great miracles through his army that God promised us God would do  in the Bible. John the Baptist brought the spirit of Elijah into this world and he did not even know  he had it. John denied it, but Jesus confessed that it was so. The purpose of that spirit was to make  straight the paths of the coming of the Lord.  

"The Alpha and Omega, the Cause of all the universe's existence was hurting because a mere  Earth child was hurting. Oh, what Love! What Understanding! It was so far beyond anything a  mere Earthling can understand. Oh how precious just one, little, insignificant Earth child is to that  Great God" – Howard Pittman